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I haven't written on Xanga in so long that the new layout scares me. I guess i'll figure it out someday if I'm bored enough. Take it easy everyone!

Amber

I can't believe how utterly bored I am right now. Paul's away at mens retreat, and everyone else I know is busy. I hate these moments. I hate being alone for too long in general, and it's just the worst when noone is around to talk to. I went to a tea party at my cousin's this morning, that was fun. But I was out by 12 and since then i've pretty much been watching design shows all day long. I spent some time on photoshop editing a wedding, I cleaned up my place a little, but besides that NOTHING. What a complete waste of a day! Oh yeah I forgot to mention that I took a 3 hour nap in the afternoon. I guess I needed that. I had one of those dreams where in my dream - I am asleep and can not wake up. I try really really hard to move around and focus on what is happening around me. But everytime I try to move and speak - I can't. It's almost like in my dream I am on some kind of heavy sleep medication. Very wierd, but I often have this dream I am napping in the middle of the afternoon. Strange. ANYWAY I am just trying to kill time here before bed. Kerrie was going to sleep over to keep me company, but couldn't at the last minute. Tracy was going to hang out this afternoon, but had her grandmother in-law's birthday dinner to go to last minute.  Story of my life.  I am definitely not in a great mood at the moment. I wish Paul was home. We have so much fun together and could spend every moment of every day together and not get bored. Just one of the reasons I love him so much! But alas he is in New Hampshire and for maybe the second time in our marraige i'm home alone without him. Never thought it would bother me, but today it is. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh well. I guess next time I know Paul is going away i'll have to make plans with people a month in advance. Than maybe people will be around!! Oh I miss the days of college when all your friends were either down the hallway or a 5 minute walk across campus.

I can't stand being bored. Can you tell?

MERRY 12 DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS!

Ohhhh i'm bored. I've been getting to work about 15-25 minutes early. I really need to control myself and stop getting out of bed on time... it's just so unlike me.